How I missed the month of April, I am not too sure. But it seemed to come and go at the blink of an eye. Which was not enough time, apparently, to write my due blog for the 23rd. I do apologize for the oversight. In light of that I guess I could say one of the things I wish I knew from the beginning would be the need for a daytimer or maybe just SIRI would work. But on a Demonolatry note there are many things I wish I had known when I had started out. And even a few things I am glad I didn’t know at that time. I mostly wish I had known how to learn, and how to listen better. I wish I had taken down more notes. I also really wish I had learned Kabbalah. Every time I have tried to get that as an integral part of my consciousness I get a headache. I know it for short periods but then the “AHA!” moment seems to elude me after that. I wish I had spent a few months doing nothing but that. I know it’s not too late, and that is on my plate. Along with a few other things. I also wish I had learned faster that Demonolatry is not about going through the motions and actually being able to learn anything from that. It was all very new to me so I spent an inordinate amount of time doing simple math over and over before I even thought about thinking beyond that. I also wish I had understood the subtleties of worshipping Demons as opposed to being a bull in a china shop. Which is mostly what my early years looked like. Also wish I had understood the symbiosis between majick and spirituality. Actually I still wish I understood that. I am glad, however, that I didn’t know how intricate all of this is. I fear it would have overwhelmed me. So sometimes all things in good time is the best cliche in this instance. There is still so much I don’t know, and I have come to the inevitable conclusion that there is simply more to know than I have time on this earth. There are things I wish I knew at the beginning. But this is how it has unfolded for me. And I do believe this is how it should be. Doesn’t stop me from wishing I knew these things at the beginning though. But at least I can accept that this is how it is. Mostly accept anyway.
Better Late Than Never…..(Which really isn’t a true statement)
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